• Poetry,  Writing

    Poem: Heartbeats

    Twist and turn
    Fire burning
    Foggy mind
    Dream away
    Intertwine
    With me
    Together
    In a rhythm
    Only we know
    Heartbeats
    Only we hear.

    Truth is behind
    Your hidden smile
    Follow me
    In my dreams
    Wake me up
    From myself
    Forget yourself
    Devote your soul
    Let me see
    What crawls inside

    Peace and Love,
    Kimmi

    Love, Heart, Beat, Heartbeat, Monitor, Valentine, Neon
  • Poetry,  Writing

    Poem: Darkness falls

    Floating away in the clouds above
    Between the sun and moon
    I dream of tomorrow
    Where we’re destined to
    Exist in the presence of
    All of creation
    When darkness falls
    Universe is no more
    Light years from here
    You will be at peace
    Resting in space.

    Peace and Love,
    Kimmi

    Milky Way, Stars, Night Sky, Night, Starry Sky, Sky
  • Poetry,  Writing

    Poem: Cotton clouds

    Soak up all dreams
    Cotton clouds above
    Sweet like sugar
    Leaves a bitter taste
    When they’re gone
    Fill the void
    The hole in my soul
    One by one
    Illuminating my aura
    Light up my flame
    Fill my heart
    Every heartbeat
    Pumping harder
    Just to feel a moment
    To feel alive

    Peace and Love,
    Kimmi

  • Dreams,  Thoughts

    Memories and Connections – Lost forever?

    The connection and understanding between two people can only ever be known by those two persons. I have contemplated over the memories and shared moments between two people, what happens to them over time? What happens if one passes away, do the memories die with them? What happens if one loses the memory? Where do they go? Do the memories even make sense to anyone else but to the people sharing them? Is that the reason why we would want to create art and creations to capture the soul of the people around us? To honour the connections between souls. I don’t know. I just know that I cherish each moment with every single soul in my life that I share a pure connection with, and I hope that we are able to hold on to the memories the day they’re only left with one soul.

    Photos, Album, Old, Photo Album, Photographer, Memory

  • Inspiration,  Personal,  Spirituality,  Thoughts

    What is our meaning?

    What is giving us meaning in our lives? Is it the strive for a career, near and dear ones, children or something beyond that, a faith or religion? Why is it so difficult to find the meaning and why does it matter to us so much? It’s a question that always keeps coming back to me. I contemplate on it and meditate on it but still come up with different answers each time. At times it can be hard to find the meaning when you feel down and depressed without light in sight. It’s funny how it can either be hormones playing a game with our brain or thoughts spiral in circles. Either way, it’s super difficult to do anything else than to rest, sleep and try to be kind to yourself and hope the day after is better. Those days it’s hard to find the meaning of life, why we are here on this earth. Music helps some days. At least to get the emotions out of the system. Some tracks make you feel so many emotions that it’s best to just listen to what your body and soul is trying to tell you. Through the music.

    I have pasted some links to some tracks that always have an impact on me. The last one is a Swedish song, which is a remake of a song from a musical from 1995, Kristina från Duvemåla (which I obviously haven’t seen since it was before my time). Haven’t seen the musical but the song spoke to me. It’s called “Du måste finnas”, which means you must exist or you must be real. For me it represents a belief in something spiritual, something higher than us, something universal. A God, perhaps. Whatever you may call it. I don’t listen to a lot of Swedish tracks these days, I used to do it more during my teenage years. This song is a song about belief and faith for me, something you might need to remind yourself of when times are rough or you have doubts that you can make it through trying times.

    Three books I’m trying to read these days are: “Mindful way out of depression”, “A new earth” by Eckhart Tolle, and “The Untethered soul: The Journey Beyond Yourself” by Michael Singer. The last one is a really great one which anyone should try to read, over and over, you find new things to focus on each time. I received it from a dear friend in India. It’s a highly spiritual book and will really take you on a journey within yourself, explore the vast divine within yourself.

    Howard Shore ft Enya – May it Be (link to Spotify, if it doesn’t work, search for it on Youtube)

    Hans Zimmer – Time

    Yiruma – River Flows in You

    Hang Massive’s music is pure magic. Just watch these two above videos

    Du måste finnas – Newkid (lyrics in English here)

  • Poetry,  Writing

    Poem: Empty Smile

    In this darkness
    There is light
    Sun is rising
    Stop the tears
    No more sorrow
    Tomorrow’s coming
    A new beginning
    Don’t hide
    Behind your smile
    Embrace the pain
    Cling on to it,
    Last drop of hope
    Fate will bring you
    Closer to my destiny
    Don’t lose yourself
    In this crazy world

    Peace and Love,
    Kimmi Sandhu

  • Personal,  Poetry,  Writing

    Poem: Irrfan Khan (RIP) 1967-2020

    The legendary Indian actor Irrfan Khan passed away. This poem is dedicated to him.
    I will miss you forever. Your films were magical to me. A lost girl looking for her belonging in this world. Her roots. Her version of India. You made me curious. I will forever be thankful to you for how your films have impacted me. They left me with an insatiable desire to be curious about my culture. My real culture. Not any made up culture I have grown up with.
    RIP Irrfan.

    The way you came in
    Swept across the country
    The entire world of art
    Your radiance
    Insatiable creativity
    Artistic acting
    Powerful characteristic
    Only viewed by us
    Through the screen
    Left in awe.

    Piece by piece,
    I opened up,
    To a world
    Of roots long lost
    Pulled them up
    With your help
    Held them close
    Tied a knot
    For each time
    You made an impact
    Left an imprint
    In my artistic heart.

    RIP Irrfan Khan.

    Love always,
    Kimmi Sandhu

    Actor Irrfan Khan passes away at age 53
  • Poetry,  Writing

    Poem: Goodbyes

    Goodbyes.

    These tiny moments
    Reflecting parting of souls
    Painful echos in our memory
    Momentary small glitches
    These evanescent seconds
    Never reminiscing
    Never recorded
    In the abyss of our vast mind

    I conjure your silhouette
    Inside of me
    The scent of you
    Tranquils my soul
    In these exasperating times
    Universe is reminding us
    Once again
    We look up at the sky
    Clouds are waving down at me
    Rays of sunshine
    Embrace me
    Comfort my soul
    Just like you
    Used to do.

    Peace and Love,
    Kimmi Sandhu

  • Personal,  Thoughts,  travel

    My roots | Mumbai Diaries

    My roots have long been malnourished and fragile, protected against outer influence. I have found my way back to watering them and slowly but surely they are growing stronger and establishing ground in places I never could have imagined. The journey to getting here has been long and lonely. When the tree is starting to blossom, not many would know the effort and pain it took to grow the tree so fertile so that flowers can bloom. The result can be intimidating just like inner growth. I didn’t realise what I have been missing in my life; a sense of belonging. I have always stood out and been the rebel for so long, that it becomes your identity. It becomes what you expect because there is no room for just being you. When you find your way back to your roots, you’ll never look back again. I wish I could have told this to my confused and suicidal teenage self. Things wouldn’t have had to be this hard.

    To be continued…

    Peace and love,

    Kimmi Sandhu

  • Health,  Inspiration,  Personal

    Lumie light therapy lamp

    I rarely write about products on this blog, but today I am making an exception. I have struggled with severe winter depression half of my life (or more), which is also called SAD (seasonal affective disorder). It occurs to many people living in the darkest northern hemisphere due to the lack of light during daytime hours. The symptoms of winter depression or SAD is usually lethargy, tiredness, anxiety and depression. It slowly creeps in on you during the autumn months and when November hits I am usually so down in the dumps that I don’t know who I am anymore. Can anyone else relate to this?

    I went to a salt spa with light therapy a few weeks ago, a session that lasted 45 min. The room was covered in rock salt crystals and the walls were filled with several light therapy lamps that were giving off “normal daylight” which one would get during the summer when it’s sunny. Walking out from that session, I had no expectations. It was dark and gloomy outside, it was even raining. I felt like the day had just begun and to my surprise I felt a bit happy (afraid to make that huge claim when I am not used to it). The effect of this lasted a couple of days, when I noticed myself not feeling as tired in the evening as I used to. It was too good to be true and I didn’t dare to connect it to the light therapy at all.

    A week passed by and I did my research into light therapy lamps to buy and have at home. One side of me thought to myself, why should I have to go to this extreme just to get some daylight. But the reviews on the websites were telling me otherwise, they were all raving the lamp. I ordered it directly. I have named him, La Luz.

    I sat with La Luz every day for 30-60min a day, sometimes when meditating and sometimes just having it on while I was on my computer. I didn’t think that anything actually happened within me at first. After the first week of using it constantly, I can honestly tell that it had made me changed. I felt lighter, not as depressed and lethargic as before. I had the energy to be awake much longer in the evenings and the energy lasted much longer.

    I am just sharing this here in case anyone else is feeling the same and wants to give it a chance. Do your research and find the lamp that will suit you the best. I chose one from the brand Lumie, but I’d assume there are several other out there.

    Who would have thought that light makes such a difference in our bodies, that it can totally change our moods?

    Peace and Love,
    Kimmi Sandhu